28 September 2013

Weekend Love

Oh my god, it was so gorgeous today (and still is!), so despite my incessant sniffles, I had to go for a run.  It wasn't the longest or greatest ever, but it was so nice just to breathe in fresh air.  Plus, there's something about the fall air that just makes my heart happy.  Caysee loved it too!

I made a huge to do list of things I need to get done today and while I have laboured away (pretty much all day long) I don't think I've stroked anything off of it other than "squats" and "run".  I still have a couple hours before I have to be anywhere, so I'll try and smoosh piano in since I really, really need the practice.  My teacher is probably like "you are the worst student I've ever had" every time I go in and haven't practiced.  Haha.  Then, Beertown tonight with one of my favourite people that I haven't seen in SO long!

Tomorrow = bridal show!  Favourite season in modeling world, hands down.  Despite the whole awesomeness of wearing wedding gowns and getting all dolled up, the girls I model with are usually the same ones every show and it's like being with my family. 

Hope everyone is happy a super weekend!

Love for life,

27 September 2013

One Sentence Updates

Random one sentence thoughts...  not awake enough for anything more.

The truth will set you free...  or at least make you feel a zillion times better.  

We are going to work on that pessimism and here is a starting point: 12 Things Happy People Do

I'm on the last two episodes of Gossip Girl before the series finale.  Exciting Friday night.

In the meantime, I'm rocking out to my celebrity boyfriend's TKO, surprised I'm still awake.

My keyboard has somehow had some of its punctuation come out en franรงais

Bucket list addition: Start reading french novels. 

I can't believe September is almost over.  
Nighty night!

26 September 2013

The Countdown Begins Today

Well, my friends, my christmas is just TWO WEEKS AWAY.  Oktoberfest...  the best time of the whole year!  And whilst I am breaking my tradition of opening night at Queensmount with Walter (who has signed my body four times), I am happy to try out a new venue with some of my favourite people (one of them being a special birthday boy!).  One of my slo pitch buddies hooked me up with a code to get free tickets to Bingemans on the 12th...  NO CATCH!  So, naturally, I ordered 10.  4 are spoken for, so I'm looking for 6 more people who'd like to hang out, get slightly intoxicated, dance to polka and then be extremely intoxicated by 9pm!  You know who you are.  Long weekend.  Oktoberfest.  Thanksgiving weekend.  My company.

In other news, I'm almost fully healthy again which means that I can (thank god) start running again.  Not only did I miss it, but as I got dressed after my shower today, I felt somewhat like a sausage.  The binging while ill, I'm sure, had something to do with that.  

In the meantime, please enjoy a couple of shots from last year's festivities.  As I do a countdown towards the best two weeks of the year, I'm sure I will find and/or post more.

Love, love and then some more,

25 September 2013

And... Blank.

This is possibly one of the first times in my life that I am drawing a complete blank as to what to write.  I think if I try to press my inability, it's going to make it worse, so we're going to just leave it at that.

Have a super rest of the evening.

Love always,

24 September 2013


My mom is visiting and has taken my computer hostage... There's pretty much no way in hell I'm typing out a blog on my iPhone!

See you tomorrow. 

23 September 2013

Almost Back to Life

I think I'm almost ready to return to the land of the living!  I made my public debut tonight at our dodgeball game (clearly only as a spectator) and it was an amazing change of scenery.  Super sad I couldn't play, but happy not to be in bed.  I am extra tired now though...  I also happened to spend a half hour this afternoon putting dishes away and folding a bit of laundry and that tedious work resulted in an hour nap.  I'm a touch worried for work, but hopeful that a good sleep tonight will get me through the day!

That's all I got, people.  It's not much, but it will have to suffice for now.

Ooh, also, how do you feel about my new background?!

Much love and health!

21 September 2013

Reliving the Past

Do you ever have those moments when you see something happening to someone else and can relate to that exact moment so well, it's almost like you're physically reliving it?  

I was just watching an episode of Gossip Girl (no judgement, please) and it's the end of an episode where Cece Rhodes has a stroke pre-surgery and the doctor comes out to tell the family there's nothing left to do but say good-bye.  As Serena and Lily are each holding one of her hands, her eyes close and she dies.  As I watched it, it wasn't just my usual "this is so sad" type of tears streaming down my face, I was actually full out crying because I could relate and could feel it happening as though I were in the room.  In 2006, I was sitting beside my grandfather at a hospice, holding his hand.  He'd been sick for awhile and this was the first chance I had made the effort to see him (and only really because my parents told me it was almost time and I needed to go).  He'd gotten remarried in 2000 and had had a small, intimate gathering in front of his children and best friend, but none of the grand-children.  I remember being so broken-hearted about it and I resented him for the last 6 years of his life because of it.  While I was visiting with him that day, my cousin was there as well.  She was reading and I was feeding Papa water every once in awhile.  As I sat there, watching him and holding his wrinkly, old hand, a tear slowly made its way down his face.  His last breath left his chest and I remember just staring in disbelief.  "I think he's dead.  I think he's dead!", I called out to my cousin.  Everything after that is a bit of a blur.  I think I made my way into the hall to shout for help, I remember hysterically calling my mother and other family members eventually arriving... 

I know I've talked to a few people about being there that day... but I don't think I've ever disclosed the part about my resentment and the guilt that ate at me for years afterwards.  It still eats at me sometimes.  I cry about it every once in awhile.  Part of the reason I went back to school for Sociology was for him; he'd been a Professor of it.  I think deep down it was a partial apology for being a bit of a fucking bitch the last few years of his life.  So, there it is... One of my deep, dark secrets and possibly one of my biggest regrets.  I don't have very many of the latter, but I wish I'd been a better grand-daughter those last six years...

It's silly that it's Gossip Girl that brought this out of me, but I am thankful to finally be able to share it and get it off my chest, even if it's just in internet world.  I've always wanted someone to forgive me for this, but I think it's time I just do it myself.

Thanks, as always, readers.

20 September 2013

Zero Taste Buds

Well, I'm no longer cranky.  Definitely still sick.  Felt totally useless and disgusting allllllll dayyyyyy long.  I'll likely be hitting up the pharm tomorrow am for some sinus drugs.  I went to take mine this morning and they'd expired last December.  Shows you how often I get sick.  Boo!

I've been in bed for the last five hours and I'm already bored to tears.  I'm flat out refusing to spend my entire weekend here, so I'm drinking lots of fluids and ridding myself of this ASAP.  Hopefully the (entire) pizza I just forced down but couldn't taste (sad state of affairs!) is also helping.  

Not my finest post, but I feel like I need to make up for some inconsistencies slash, as already mentioned, I'm bored out of my mind.

Happy Friday!  Loving the thunderstorm!!

Much love and have a super weekend!
- Megs

19 September 2013

Hot Mess

This just in: I'm tired and can't sleep, slightly cranky and sick.  No more posts until the bad mood fucks off and my head cold eats a big one.

Victory for the day: I survived without getting rageful or crying.  Go me!

Though, I guess the day isn't totally over yet...


17 September 2013

The Overflow

I had ideas of writing last night, but I was so tired at 9:30 that I forced myself to have a bath and went to sleep immediately afterward.  I cannot even tell you the last time I was in bed by 11pm. Clearly this resulted in the lack of a post last night, so here we go.

I've already verbalized this idea with a few friends tonight, but I feel the need to put it out there.  Sometimes I feel like I'm crazy, but this is my life: My heart often feels like it is SO full of love, that it is actually impossible to give it all out over any given day to any number of people (before it resets for the next day!).  This is one of THE MOST ESSENTIAL reasons that I am so glad slash grateful slash happy that I get to work with children.  I am able to give out hugs, cuddles, reassuring pats, more hugs, and even more cuddles on a daily basis.  A positive consequence of all these actions is the reciprocation.  There is nothing more heart-warming than genuine connections with children who know that you truly care for them and return the same love through spontaneous hugs, hanging off my leg, playing with my hair or curling into my lap.   Or my personal favourite: when they're crying and no other teacher will do and they seek you out, even if it means crying for longer if they'd just gone to the first teacher who tried to help them.  

So,  yes.  That's my post for tonight.  After re-reading it, it feels a bit disorganized, but that's my head tonight.  The alcohol may have influenced the style of writing this evening...  Whoops!

Much love and here's hoping for no hangover tomorrow!


13 September 2013

Happy Friday the 13th!

Week 2 of school is done.  And so am I.  I don't remember being this tired last year...  I had a bunch of Arbonne stuff this week and meetings and more meetings and Meet the Teacher Night...  I've pretty much decided I'm staying in bed all night tonight.  I have some more Arbonne parties this weekend and a photoshoot, so I won't be getting much rest over the next two days either...  I will likely be in bed by ten tonight. #noshame

I'm hoping that as I settle into the new routine, my body will get used to it.  I'm also hoping Caysee's 7 months and counting bladder infection goes away ANY DAY NOW.  Lately, I've been getting up 3-4 times a night with her; it's almost like having a baby minus, you know, the whole having a baby and breastfeeding thing.

I was going through my old hard drive not too long ago and came across some amazing photos and/or old documents/quotations.  So, in an effort to be a little bit entertaining, here are some photos!

 High School trip to Canada's Wonderland on the Ghoster Coaster

  Grad formal

  Last day of high school!

 This one time we did "Century Club".  This was us hitting the 25 mark.  The back of my shirt read "First to puke" and naturally, I was.

Hopefully next week's entries will be a little more consistent!  In the mean time, have an excellent weekend and thanks, as always, for your constant support.

Much love and then some more!

10 September 2013

And So It Begins...

Tonight is the last free night I've got for awhile...  Starting tomorrow, I am jam packed full of amazing things Arbonne, staff meetings, region meetings, Meet the Teacher Night and even more Arbonne.  I totally decided to enjoy tonight by cleaning the fish tank, cleaning the kitchen and preparing lunches for the next few days.  A clean kitchen is totally under rated.  Every time I walk in, I feel a happiness that is completely nonsensical and ridiculous.  I smiled the last time because the counter was clear.  Awesome.  

Also super happy because:
a) it hit an amazing 41 degrees today!
b) my Arbonne Holiday Line arrived!
c) my OrganicsLive was delivered!
d) I rediscovered my love for Rookie Blue

Totally a number of small to medium victories for me today.

Let the craziness commence!

So much love,

09 September 2013

Heart Full

I'm having one of those days where my heart is just so full.  The people I'm surrounded by make me feel SO lucky and grateful.  Whether they're talking me out of an irrational moment to inspiring me, believing in me, or loving me, to simply just being there for me, I am beyond lucky.  And so thankful.

Happy Monday!
Love muchly.

05 September 2013

Peacin' Out!

Being back at work is both invigorating and exhausting.  I spent a lot of the summer being an insomniac and this week has been awesome for tiring me out and getting me back to the real world.  Running every other day is also super helpful. I ran 3.92 km today without stopping and I powered up every hill I came across!  I'm super super proud of myself.

Tomorrow after work, I head for Albany...  Should be a great six hour drive with two of my Arbonne besties.  We have a conference all day Saturday and then another six hour drive home!  Hopefully I am awake enough for the entire drive!  And hopefully we all remember our passports!

Needless to say, it's unlikely I'll be posting tomorrow, so have an amazing weekend, my amazing readers!
I'm off to Kellie's for what will be a great evening of chatting, catching up and filling buckets.

Love always,

04 September 2013

Thank YOU!

Today was absolutely exhausting and then I had piano to boot, so my mind is pretty much unable to function in terms of writing anything (it just took me 30 minutes to write a quick paragraph for a work email), so I'm going to spare you all today.

However, I did want to take this opportunity to thank you for reading my blog!  Whether you are a first time reader to having been around the past couple of years, I hope you know how much I appreciate your time, your comments, your energy and everything and anything else you contribute to my life.

Much, much love.
Enjoy the tunes.

03 September 2013

Back To School, Oh, Back To School

I hope you all sung that in your Billy Madison voice.

First day back...  A little bit more stressful than I had imagined it to be, but talking with parents during our parent interviews gave me a lot more confidence in myself and my ability to do so.  I've been talking to parents for 10 years, I'm not sure why I was worried!  I've totally got this.  The fact that I also have an amazingly competent teaching partner also helps immensely!  I look forward to having 3/4 of our class tomorrow and meeting all our little itty bitty Kindies!

Had a dinner date with Steph tonight at Jane Bond...  I was starving, so we pretty much arrived there as soon as the restaurant opened.  As a result, it would have been a long time to wait for my Cauliflour Curry, so I decided to be brave (for the second time today!) and try something new.  I also indulged in a Watermelon Lemonade Cocktail.  Not so delicious.  The Enchilada plate I ordered was also not delicious, but I still rammed it down my throat quickly care of my hunger.  I was ready for the bill, but Steph piped up, "Any vegan dessert?" to which I found out there was a Chocolate Mousse Pie.  Clearly, I spoke up.  "Done."  And let me tell you... Possibly the most delicious thing I have ever eaten in my life!  Pre-vegan (and a large reason I initially went vegan) I could down an entire box of Lindor chocolates.  You know how the middles are soft and creamy?  Clearly the best part.  THAT is what this vegan mousse pie deliciousness tasted like.  Every bite was like eating the middle of a Lindor.  I tried to carry on a conversation with Steph, but as I ate, I would close my eyes and just taste it.  My sentences would drop off mid-way through.  I actually had to keep myself from moaning in the middle of Jane Bond.  It was almost embarrassing, but it was just so good that I didn't even care! Did I get a slice to go?  Sure did! 

I get to relive it all again tomorrow.  I cannot even wait.

Love and positive energy!

02 September 2013


I dumbly/smartly signed up to do a 5k obstacle course/zombie chase/run at the end of this month.  I've been a "runner" on and off for a few years now.  I use the quotations because I've been off more than on, and I was never really the biggest fan of running...  until this weekend.  Two things have made running progress from "dislike" to "like" (and hopefully one day to "LOVE"!): 

1) It is so underrated in terms of being alone and disconnected (and yet connected) from/to the entire world.  Running is one of the few times my phone is ignored, my music is pumped and I can ignore everything, except for myself.  It gives me time to think, evaluate, and then re-evaluate my first thought all over again.  I've come to many epiphanies lately while running, most of them related to personal growth and why I feel the need to compare myself to others constantly (this is a big one, but I'm definitely working on it). 

2) Finishing.  Starting out as a new runner is so tough because you can't go far, you get out of breath, and you feel like a failure because you spend so much time walking...  Lately, I've just started pushing myself to keep going.  If I'm unable to continue, I'll let myself walk and I'll pick something in the near distance "When I get to that ______, I'll start running again" and I do.  I'm starting to go further distances without stopping.  The best part about finishing at the cottage is the little lake.  I basically just strip down and dive in.  So amazing.  

I've already started losing weight and firming up areas that were giving me trouble and I know that continuing to run (and eating healthy) will get me into really great shape.  Additionally, I'm working on planking and doing squats every day to strengthen my core and to stop being such a flat ass!  Haha.

Maybe I'll even be in great enough shape to outrun the zombies on the 28th!  Here's hoping!

Much love and happiness!