Ownership and New Year's Resolutions

It's been almost a month since I last logged on.  It's not that I haven't had anything to say, it's that I've let important things slide a little bit.  I'm a gamer, a nerd, a League of Legends addict... and sometimes (more often lately than not), I've let it get the best of me.  I have good, no, GREAT intentions of playing just two games a day and then all of a sudden, my entire evening is gone.  I haven't left my bed, I've been eating non-stop, I've let the house turn into a disaster and I've stop caring about things that are important to me; friendships/relationships, my business, my house and most importantly, myself.  

Tonight, I started examining my core values.  I was reading a blog, written by who I call my "Arbonne Crush", Deb Borges, and she was discussing core values.  No matter what people think or people say, do I let that change my core values?  Do I change who I am depending on who I surround myself with?  More often than not, YES.  I've just decided that one of the core values I want to focus on is OWNERSHIP.  I want to be accountable for my actions, my past ones, the ones I haven't yet made, and I want to learn from my mistakes and experiences.  I don't want to be owned by a computer game, I don't want to care what other people think, I want to be SUCCESSFUL, I want to dream, I want to stand up for my beliefs, and I want to love myself, flaws and all.

As New Year's approaches (it's not THAT far off, people), I want to come up with resolutions that are achievable and things I can be held accountable for.  However, I also think it's important that the resolutions aren't so super specific that there's only one way to do them.  How about "I want to take better care of myself" instead of "I want to lose 20 pounds"?  If I only lose 19, then I haven't achieved my resolution and I'll likely say "forget it" and probably put that weight back on.  (Emotional eater much?)

I hope this entry finds you well.  I will do my best to be back more often, and I'll totally take ownership if I'm not.  As always, thanks for reading.
Love muchly and then some,
Meaghan

Here is the link to Deb's blog: Alive and Empowered Blog

Your Ideal Body

I've heard from people multiple times that they're uncomfortable answering their phones, despite having call display and knowing who it is.  I mean, I'm absolutely guilty of it.  I don't even like to answer my front door if it's unexpected.  Have we really entered into such an uncomfortable place that we'd rather text, email or facebook our friends and family instead of talking to them?  I thought this was interesting, and a segue way into what I really wanted to talk about...

I got a phone call today from my agency to let me know that I'd been chosen as a possible candidate for a magazine spread in The Grand (a local print), but they needed to know my measurements and have recent photos sent in.  I have been SO envious of a number of my model friends who have appeared in the magazine (and some of them more than once!) and here it is, my chance to be in it too!  I dashed my own hopes though as soon as I heard "they'd like your measurements".  Ahh!  For the last week (minus a cheat day. Or two!) I have been busting my butt: doing squats, planking, running, attempting to bike with airless tires...  and now all of a sudden, I need to share my measurements.  And clearly a week hasn't changed much...  The horror of it all.  But then I said to myself, you know what?  FORGET IT (but I actually used a different 'f' word)!  I'm sending those numbers, I'm finding my most recent pictures (thanks, iPhone - sorry one of them involved me proudly holding a Somersby) and I am going to continue to bust my ass for the body I want.  If they pick me, amazing.  If they don't, I'm not dead.  I still have plenty of time to realize my goals and achieve my dreams.

So, this entry is for all of you who have had more cheat days than good days; it's not too late!  You have the choice and the chance to give yourself a better, healthier life.  Don't punish yourself for the bad days, they are going to happen.  Move forward.  Do your best.  FEEL your best.  You can do it!  PLEASE get in touch with me or call me if you need a chat, need advice, need help or need a running buddy!

Love and health!
M