When I Give Up

I deleted Tinder today and sent messages to all the people I'd been going on dates with or talking to end things. I finally hit the point of exasperation care of how much work dating is. Trying to keep up and remember who said what or what so and so looks like and being busy every single day is draining. Additionally, when you do find someone you quasi-connect with, they simply end up disappointing you by not showing up, never responding or not having their shit together. The latter is even more exhausting, so I'm giving up on seeking out love. I refuse to be so dramatic as to say I'm giving up on it, as I know it's everywhere and all around me all the time, but in terms of dating someone to find love, I'm saying fuck it. 

For now. 
Love can find me when it's ready.

M

Sleep Deprived

I think care of lack of sleep (SINCE MARCH), my body is starting to fall apart.  I still haven't 100% kicked this cold, I have zero desire to do anything and I'm ready for bed at 8pm every night.  I'm about ready to take Caysee to every single vet in KW to figure out a solution to this bladder infection.  I just want a full night's sleep.  Hell, I'd be happy with even a HALF night's sleep.  And I just want a day where I don't have to clean up pee.  17 times.

I'm exhausted and cranky and just done.  Forgive my less than decent posts as of late and if you don't happen to see many in the very near future.

I hope everyone had an amazing long weekend!  I did.  I'm so lucky!

Much much love.
And then some more!
- M

2 For 1

Oops!  I somehow forgot to post yesterday...  I think the exhaustion and monotony of full-time work and studying got to me and I was in bed, reading, by 8:30 last night.  That was totally my victory then.

TODAY was wow!  I've been so stressed about this silly history mid-term that I was letting it run my life and how I feel about being school...  to the point where I started questioning why I was even bothering!  Walking out of the mid-term tonight, I was like, THAT is why I'm in school - to rock those tests, to really understand how things work and to care enough about myself to keep learning.  I'd been guilt-eating (aka BINGE) during studying (I had the worst sweet tooth craving/give in), so I was extra inspired to run tonight.  For the second time this week, I've run for 40 minutes!  Yay, me! 

I just have one more mid-term to go and then I'm FREEEEEEEE.  Dominican in 12 days!  WOW.  I can't wait!

Much love and learning always!
- M